BB is in hospital after suffering a fall last week. She has a fractured pelvis (in 2 places) so we are at a loss right now as to what will happen next. The only thing we know for sure is that she cannot live alone any longer.

Life has changed for her. No more independance. I pray that this time of her life will be less painful for her than she imagined. She has always dreaded this day. The day when she could no longer get up and get herself a cup of coffee.

BB you fought a good fight, the battle isn't over yet and the victory isn't yours. Not yet.

BB is staying with a friend who provides care in her home for seniors. I don't know how long she will be there - it may turn into long term, we'll have to assess the situation later. I am waiting to talk to the Health Care Nurse for an official assessment to see what resources are available to her.

Chris has been amazing and I appreciate her support so much. I know she doesn't always agree with decisions being made concerning my mom but she stands by me and loves me through it all. I am very thankful for her.

So much confusion for the old girl. She couldn't get her phone to work on Monday, couldn't get anyone on the phone, very mixed up and very tired of being confused. She's just tired of everything.

One of her favorite songs is an old gospel hymn " I know not what the future holds but I know who holds the future". So true in this time of her life.

Be at peace BB, God's got it all under control.

BB

For the past little while I have noticed a change in my mom, BB. She often gets confused and mixed up about the little things in life, never mind the bigger things. She's depressed and getting quite withdrawn, preferring to live in her own little world.

Then I noticed her prescription for her thyroid pills hadn't been filled and I thought they should have. She has been on thyroid rx since I was young. No other meds, just thyroid. So I asked her about them. And the answer I got wasn't very positive so I took things in my own hands and got her prescription filled.

That was Wednesday. Yesterday as we were just heading out the door for breakfast I got a panicky phone call from the lady who picks my mom up for church. She was at my mom's door and the neighbour let her in when she didn't respond to the loud pounding on the door. Only to find my mom laying in bed not wanting to wake up. So not like BB, who has always been a morning person.

After awhile we were able to get her up and moving around. I gave her a nice hot shower and washed her hair and put her back into some clean night clothes. Chris changed the sheets on her bed and we made her some dinner.

So confused, so mixed up, doesn't know where she is sometimes. And it's just so hard seeing her like this, knowing this is the end of her life.

Love you BB.

"May today there be peace within.
May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others.
May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content with yourself just the way you are.
Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us."